When I woke up this morning I immediately sensed that something was off. Instead of my first thought being, “Thank you for another day I get to enjoy,” (which is how I usually start my days), I wondered what the hell I was doing. I started doubting myself, I questioned my path, and before I knew it the bitch train had already left the station and accelerated well beyond the top speed of Shanghai’s famous maglev.
Whoa! How did THAT happen?
I have absolutely nothing to complain about. While I like to joke that I live my life by discovery rather than by design, the truth is that I know exactly what I love to do, what I want to do, and I know I’m headed in that direction. The “discovery” part of my life has to do with my journey. I don’t have my exact path mapped out. Rather than obsessing over the “cursed how’s,” as my mentor Mike Dooley says, I take whatever inspired baby steps that occur to me. I do what feels most joyful, or as some would say, I follow the fun. I consequently have little epiphanies every day (my daily discoveries, if you will), and I find myself enjoying most moments.
So how did I catch the wrong train this morning? I was supposed to be on the bliss train, after all.
The simple, direct answer is that I’m human. I may have an amazing connection to Source, which I tap into every day, but that doesn’t mean I’m perfect or free of very human moments. My human experiences are an integral part of my total existence. I mean, why would I take on a human body and live this life if I didn’t want to have a full-on human experience? If I didn’t want that, I might as well have stayed in the ethers playing a harp or flying around with a ridiculous grin on my face. (Okay… I always have a ridiculous grin on my face, but that’s another subject entirely).
Human Me is going to have the occasional temper tantrum, and boy did he throw a fit this morning. Higher Me is very fond of saying, “I celebrate the contrast,” but today Human Me held out a middle finger as the bitch train left the station and said, “F**k the contrast!” Oy vey. How do you pull the emergency brake on that one?
I did the only thing that came to mind. I went on a coffee run.
Well… not exactly. I had printed a bunch of flyers for my upcoming July events and I had planned to distribute them to local coffee houses later this week, but given that Human Me was in a really bitchy mood and pouting, I decided to let him have his tantrum while I went out to do something fun. I invited Human Me to come along for the ride, and I was pleased when he accepted the invitation. Human Me and my dog have that in common. They LOVE going for a car ride.
Two and a half hours later Human Me has totally forgotten his sour mood and Higher Me is having fun letting Human Me take a direct hand in writing this post. While on my car ride, the bliss train caught up with the bitch train and Human Me was able to make the transition into the right cabin. Bitchy human is now happy human who is poking fun at himself – and as he pokes fun at himself, he’s reminded of a blog post written exactly one year ago: Distract Yourself.
Imagine that. I took my own advice, and by the time I finished distracting myself, Human Me and Higher Me were realigned and ready to keep living life by discovery. I don’t know what the rest of the day will bring, but what I DO know is that I’m going to have fun. If bitchy human resurfaces, at least I know how to handle him.
About the Author
Appio Hunter is an author, speaker, spiritual guide, and self-described champion for living joyously. He facilitates conversations with groups and individuals about how they can be authentic and experience community, connection, and alignment every day. Appio is also co-host of the Real Men Feel Show along with his good friend Andy Grant.