The Pain of Continuous Evolution
I feel a big shift coming.
Yeah… another shift. It’s not like I haven’t had plenty; I have. And yet the more I evolve, the faster the pace of that evolution. I’ve learned to accept the rapid changes in my life, but I admit there are times I want to pause and catch my breath.
Having said that, I’m excited to see what the next stage of my life will bring. I’m also a little nervous because so much as evolved in such a short time.
It’s been only four years since I started down my current path and it seems like I’ve bounced all over the place. I’m sure that lots of people who know me think the same thing.
I make that comment because I feel that what I’m writing today is an attempt to sooth parts of me that still live in fear and judgment. This reflection is a way to get those parts to work in sync with the rest of me. One thing I’ve learned is that I can’t discard any part of myself as I evolve. Why? Because I can’t be aligned if part of me is missing.
Rather than seeing something I don’t like about myself and throwing it away, I’m learning how to embrace every aspect of my personality so I can see how the less desirable parts fit into the totality of who I am.
Learning how to live in harmony with myself and everything else hasn’t been easy. While I’ve shared many parts of my journey in my reflections, I have by no means painted a complete picture. I’m still learning, still evolving, still finding what works, still shifting pieces of my life around.
I have embraced and loved everything I’ve done so far, but I will also admit that I have felt very unstable. What I mean is that going with the flow and embracing the myriad changes in my life has allowed me to live joyously, but I’ve always felt an undercurrent of impermanence in what I do.
That drives my human side crazy.
Buddhist philosophy emphasizes the impermanence of all things, so I was already familiar with the concept. But to actually experience impermanence… it’s hard to describe. The best way I can describe the experience of impermanence is that I feel both lost and found. I’m both nervous and at peace. I want to cling to what I have, and yet I’m okay with letting it go.
What I’m saying is this: Don’t too surprised if my reflections on joyous living shift more toward harmonious living, alignment, and things like that. Joyous living is both the foundation and the result of harmony and alignment.
That’s the direction I’m going, and it’s the direction I feel we’re ready to embrace.
Continuous evolution can be a real pain at times, but it’s what we’re hard-wired to do. As long as I’m gonna evolve anyway, I might as well enjoy the ride.
About the Author
Appio Hunter is an author, speaker, spiritual guide, and self-described champion for living joyously. He facilitates conversations with groups and individuals about how they can be authentic and experience community, connection, and alignment every day. Appio is also co-host of the Real Men Feel Show along with his good friend Andy Grant.